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Messy Mya Painting, And Apology

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I've removed my former painting of Messy Mya, the one based uoon his death photo, and replaced it with the freshly painted image above.

When I first came across the now infamous photo of Anthony Barre, down on the sidewalk with camera phones in his face, I  immediately related. Lately I've been feeling like a victim of my own online presence so the photo had a meaning to me.  That's why I wrote my name in his blood; I was saying  'I feel like Messy Mya shot down'-trying to entertain and still things go wrong.

I've never run an auction outside of Ebay and directly on this blog before, so I thought if I posted it here with no rules and no conditions that people would 'get' that the auction was meant as a challenge.  I didn't feel the need to spell that part out; I assumed people could figure it out on their own.  Just like Mya made videos and then people took videos of him at his last moment, I was picturing 'myself' in Mya's place and then sarcastically asking 'how many pieces of gold for what I do?'  Basically I was just feeling sorry for myself.  I never really expected to sell the painting and didn't anticipate it would explode like it did on Twitter, or that trashy aggregate sites selling iphones or vacation packages would grab the link to my painting and stick it out there as the first result for 'messy mya death photo' as many did.  Just for the record-I never Twittered the original; I just posted it on my blog and decided that people could either find it or not.

I think that, when you are an artist, like Mya was an artist, you sometimes decide to do a thing solely on inspiration and to get in people's faces and convince yourself not to care what anyone thinks or feels, because if get too sensitive you miss making an important point.  Or so you think.

Reading the comments I saw there were only thirty or so people who were upset, just a fraction of the people who were visiting because of the painting.  I could see they were good people and I was waiting every day for them to 'get it' but it wasn't happening.

So, the auction is over.  I won't sell the original painting to anyone.  I end up selling almost everything I do-but I'll keep that one. I've pulled that image from the internet and replaced it with the portrait of Mya above, which was the happiest and most lively image of him I could find.  The original of this newer painting is also not for sale, but fans may feel free to use the posted image of it in any non-commercial way they might like.

To those good people who were upset by my original painting, I truly apologize.  Sometimes I really am a so-and-so, but I usually try to aim that only at other so-and-so's or myself.

30 Things I Want To Do...

I saw this post on Amy's blog ( http://beautyduty26.blogspot.com/) and thought it was adorable! Here are my 30 Things...

1. Travel back to my favorite place in Italy, Positano

2. Start my own cosmetics line

3. Get another pet

4. Cherish the ones that are good to me

5. Change my hair color (it's always blonde!)

6. Learn to cook more things, since I enjoy it when I do!

7. Continue doing ballet & dancing

8. Find that one perfect lipstick (are you out there???)

9. Travel to places I've never been, Ireland being next on my list

10. Read a book that leaves a lasting impression

11. Continue using Latisse, so I can have long, LONG eye lashes =)

12. Not worry so much

13. Have my own vegetable garden one day, like my grandfather did

14. Take more photos. I take a lot now, but there's always room for more.

Photos = Happy Memories in life.

15. Make someone else's day

16. Make good money $$$

17. Blog more for my amazing readers

18. Possibly go back to school for my Master's degree

19. Master another language and actually USE it

20. Watch less reality TV (as much as I hate to admit i'm addicted!)

21. LOVE again

22. Master makeup techniques by watching those who know more than me!

23. Go to all the rock concerts I can

24. Be inspired by all that's around me to create art

25. Think of 5 more things that I want to do...

xoxo